02.01.2011.

U 2011. godini

zelim da mi svaka noc bude kao vecerasnja. Obozavam je.

25.12.2010.

Ovo je prvi Bozic u posljednje 4 godine da nisam depresivan. Isplati se cekati, jer ipak s vremenom, stvari dodju na svoje.

Sretni praznici svima. :* Onima kojima nisu toliko sretni... pricekajte jos malo, it'll happen eventually. :)

21.12.2010.

Sad ce i Bozic,

a tad je glupo, jako glupo biti sam.

17.12.2010.

For once.

Really wish you'd stop running away.

11.12.2010.

Still got it.

<3

23.11.2010.

.

Zelim da ti se uvucem u glavu, barem na tren.

14.11.2010.

Wait!

They don't love you like I love you!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIIxlgcuQRU

12.11.2010.

Pitam se pitam

Da li se sjetila koji je danas dan...







8.


EDIT - Jeste. :)

11.11.2010.

Nothing's changed

I still love you, oh I still love you.
Only slighlty, only slightly less than I used to,
my love.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=naos7it_bl0&ob=av2n

03.11.2010.

Tako mi je divno biti s tobom.

Na trenutak zaboravim da vise nisi moja...

31.10.2010.

.

Da je barem lako sve obrisati kao profil na fejsu.

30.10.2010.

Miss you...

I sve su vile, sve su kraljice,
i sve su nevazne naspram nje.

26.10.2010.

.

I ove noci osjetio sam onu istu bol kao i prije, kad si rekla, kad si govorila, a opet sve promijenila. Vec po ko zna koji put put me nesto ubija i nikako da me ojaca, i opet uvidjam sam - vidim da je jedna, jedna jedina prava ljubav u tom pustom zivotu. Koji je bez nje niko i nista.
Tako je malo potrebno za nju, tako je malo potrebno da nestane, tako je malo ljudi ima.
Zasto postoji 1000 zasto, ako se tu krije jedan maleni zato, koji sve govori, sve objasnjava a mi mu ne vjerujemo, ne pruzimo mu ruku.
Zasto su prave rijeci bile samo slike, a zadnje nesto veliko, bas to?
Da li razmisljas o sebi, ili o nama?
Pogledaj unazad, slobodno pogledaj, ne pratim te...
Nemoj da kazes ono sto si htjela reci, budi sigurna prije nego zatvoris vrata, prije nego pogrijesis, zatvori oci.
Ja sam uvijek blizu tebe, u cvijetu, u suncanom zraku, i neka te ove rijeci napisane podsjete na mene, na osobu koja te voljela, vremenski dovoljno, duhovno beskrajno...
Kad vec ubijes ljubav, uzmi i sjecanje, zaboravi, ali se sjeti!
Za vjecnost.
Za ljubav.
Za zivot.
Za tebe...

24.10.2010.

And the music don't feel like it did

with you.

23.10.2010.

Zivot

je totalno ne fer.

19.10.2010.

Without you I'm nothing.

Strange infatuation seems to grace the evening tide.
I'll take it by your side.
Such imagination seems to help the feeling slide.
I'll take it by your side.
Instant correlation sucks and breeds a pack of lies.
I'll take it by your side.
Oversaturation curls the skin and tans the hide.
I'll take it by your side.

tick - tock
tick - tick - tick - tick - tick - tock

I'm unclean, a libertine
And every time you vent your spleen,
I seem to lose the power of speech,
You're slipping slowly from my reach.
You grow me like an evergreen,
You've never seen the lonely me at all

I...
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
I...
Fall.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Without you, I'm nothing.
Take the plan, spin it sideways.
Without you, I'm nothing at all.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIRz7zaKGLY

18.10.2010.

.

Tesko je ostati normalan na ovakve stvari. U biti, tesko je uopste biti normalan u danasnjem svijetu. Necu sad da se hvalim da jesam, vecina se hvali sto nisu (kako sam ja primjetio).
Sto je to zapravo normala? Meni je npr. kompliment kada mi neko kaze da sam normalan. Vjerovatno zbog toga sto po mnogim standardima ne spadam u tu 'kategoriju'. Ali kakvih sve ljudi ima, smatram se takvim. Do neke granice barem.

Pisem 'gluposti', tesko mi je, depresija me ne popusta danima. Stojim u mjestu, ne mogu krenuti dalje. Koci me nesto, a da ni sam vise ne znam sta. Pustila me je, ona krece dalje, a ja jos uvijek stagniram. Popustila mi je snaga samosugestije. Ne mogu se vise ni uvjeriti da cu biti OK, kao da ce mi odgovor na pitanje 'kako si?' vjecno biti 'nikako'. Pa ni druge mi ne mogu odvuci misli od nje, ne mogu privuci paznju. Nijedna nije dovoljno dobra u mojima ocima. Mozda imam prevelike kriterije. Ili sam jednostavno otupio. Ne znam. Samo znam da mi je dosta ovog 'nistavila'.

I know some day you'll have a beautiful life
I know you'll be the sun
in somebody elses sky,
but why?
Why?
Why
can't it be
can't it be mine??

14.10.2010.

You are someone else,

I am still right here.

11.10.2010.

Special needs.

Remember me when you're the one who's silver screened
Remember me when you're the one you always dreamed
Remember me whenever noses start to bleed
Remember me, special needs

Just 19 and sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behaviour

Remember me when you clinch your movie deal
And think of me stuck in my chair that has four wheels
Remember me through flash photography and screams
Remember me, special dreams

Just 19 this sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behaviour
Just 19 and sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behaviour

Remember me...

Just 19 this sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behaviour
Just 19 and sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 19 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behaviour

Remember me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DWqe-0ZllhI

09.10.2010.

:(

Mrzim oktobar.

09.10.2010.

Jebeni emos.

Ever wanted to blow your motherfucking head off? I do. Almost every day.

09.10.2010.

My butterfly...

Make your escape,
you're my own papillon
The world turns too fast,
feel love before it's gone

It kicks like a sleep twitch

My papillon,
feel love when it's shone

It kicks like a sleep twitch

''Darling,
just don't put down your guns yet
If there really was a God here,
he'd have raised a hand by now
Now darling,
you're born get old then die here
Well that's quite enough for me dear,
we'll find our own way home somehow''

No sense of doubt,
or what you could achieve
Well I found you out,
I've seen the life you wish to leave

But when it kicks like a sleep twitch

You will choke
choke on the air you try to breathe

It kicks like a sleep twitch

''Darling,
just don't put down your guns yet
If there really was a God here,
he'd have raised a hand by now
Now darling,
you're born get old then die here
Well that's quite enough for me dear,
we'll find our own way home somehow''

It kicks like a sleep twitch
It kicks like a sleep twitch

''Darling,
just don't put down your guns yet
If there really was a God here,
he'd have raised a hand by now
Now darling,
you're born get old then die here
Well that's quite enough for me dear,
we'll find our own way home somehow''

It kicks like a sleep twitch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ikjDUcgYAP0

06.10.2010.

Uvijek se nekako vratim ovoj pjesmi.

Donose vino domace,
prozori tvoji zaspat ce,
ne spustaj kad te nazovem,
sta cu, moram.

Poneki osmijeh slagat cu,
poneku srecu odglumit cu
i sve se lazem proci ce,
a znam da nece.

Sta ti je vrijeme donijelo,
il' bolje, sta je odnijelo,
od kako nismo zajedno,
al' svejedno.

Sve da se nebo otvori
i padnu zvijezda grozdovi
ni jedna od njih, Natasa,
nije nasa.

Negdje na dnu srca,
duboko u meni,
nesto me tjera, ej, tebi kao zeni.
Negdje na dnu srca,
nesto me veze
i sto sam stariji bit' ce mi sve teze.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpIofd39Pok

06.10.2010.

S vremena na vrijeme,

cini mi se,
ko da su tvoji koraci.
S vremena na vrijeme,
pa se sjetim,
ja nisam tvoj, ne postojim.

05.10.2010.

Ahead there.

I get myself together,
but I need you,
forever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNjmidHLrK4

03.10.2010.

Dzaba mi.

Kada to vise nije bitno.

03.10.2010.

Juce, danas, sutra.

Volim te.

01.10.2010.

Ako su emocije vjecne nemamo se sto bojat', znamo da dobar sretan kraj ne moze postojat'.

28.09.2010.

Optimistic.

You can shed tears that she is gone,
or you can smile because she has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that she'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all she's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see her,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that she is gone,
or you can cherish her memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what she'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.

- David Harkins

27.09.2010.

If only.

Postat cu indiferentan.


Jednog dana.

23.09.2010.

Washing of the water.

Letting go, it's so hard
The way it's hurting now
To get this love untied
So tough to stay with thing
'Cos if I follow through
I face what I denied
I get those hooks out of me
And I take out the hooks that I sunk deep in your side
Kill that fear of emptiness, loneliness I hide

River, oh river, river running deep
Bring me something that will let me get to sleep
In the washing of the water will you take it all away
Bring me something to take this pain away


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bwGiRrn3m2o

21.09.2010.

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.

20.09.2010.

I miss you.

Nedostajes mi. Toliko jebeno mi nedostajes. Taman dodjem do one tacke kada mi je svejedno, kada su mi drugi, vazniji ciljevi u glavi, kada mislim da mogu nastaviti dalje. I onda opet sve ispocetka. Toliko zelim da ti ovo kazem, iako si sama svjesna toga. No zelim da izgovorim te rijeci, da ih cujes, ili barem procitas. Da ti ne bude svejedno. Kako ti moze biti svejedno? Ne moze. Vjerovatno i nije. Ali ne mogu ti to reci, nije uredu. Ne smijes mi vise nedostajati.

19.09.2010.

Fak dis.













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16.09.2010.

.

How can I live with myself when I can't stand what I've become because of you?!

14.09.2010.

BRB

Went to kill myself.

13.09.2010.

Ne postoji dobar sretan kraj.

Sad zene zuje oko mene dok pricam u kutu sobe
da imam tvrdu kozu, al me svaki put ubode
one nece bit sretne dok mi ne polome nadu
mozda za mene nema ljubavi u ovome gradu


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LW1bvNvlN_g
http://djecaci.net/diskografija/djecaci-ne-postoji-dobar-sretan-kraj/

13.09.2010.

No more communication.

Mozda je ovako bolje. Mozda te lakse prebolim. Valjda znas sta radis. Ako ti je imalo stalo, a znam da jeste, mozda ovo radis upravo zbog mene.
Uvijek to prokleto 'mozda' se provlaci kroz sva moja razmisljanja. Zato sto ni u sta nisam vise siguran. Zato sto mi to 'mozda' ulijeva neku nadu.
Idem dalje, ostavljam te i ne osvrcem se.

U dubini duse, jos uvijek cekam te.

13.09.2010.

What I am to you is not what you mean to me.

Don't hold yourself like that
cause You'll hurt your knees
well I kissed your mouth, and back
But that's all I need
Don't build your world around
Volcanoes melt you down

And What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask for the sea

Don't throw yourself like that
In front of me
I kissed your mouth, your back
Is that all you need?
Don't drag my love around
Volcanoes melt me down

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you, you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me miles and miles of mountains
And I'll ask
What I give to you is just what I'm going through
This is nothing new, no, no just another phase of finding
what I really need is what makes me bleed
But like a new disease, Lord, she's still too young to treat
Volcanoes melt you down
She's still too young +what iam to you+you do not need+is not real I kissed your mouth
You do not need me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=259uK-4OqWA

12.09.2010.

Volio bih da sam kao ti.

Volio bih da sam dobro. Da mi je dan bio divan. Da sam se lijepo proveo. Da sam sretan. Da ne osjecam nista. Da sam hladan. Da se mogu odreci svega tako lako. Da mogu zaboraviti. Da mi vise nije bitno.
Jedva cekam taj dan. Ali pitanje je, koliko dugo cu cekati?

11.09.2010.

Sve prave su ljubavi tuzne.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=At2diZdy2pc

Ide uz ovo vrijeme.


Nevjerovatno mi nedostaje...

08.09.2010.

Sada mi vise nije smijesno.

Jer je zaista gotovo. The end. Zavrsili smo.


But I'll always be your friend.

08.09.2010.

Hahahahaha.

Sad mi smijesno. xD

To be continued.

08.09.2010.

.

Zasto te je oblilo rumenilo
zelim osjetit samo prvi dodir usana.
Zasto sam toliko osjetio
poljubi me, a nakon toga odustajem.

07.09.2010.

Kada jednom odem,

ne pitaj se zasto sam otisao, vec zasto si me pustila da odem.

06.09.2010.

She loves me, she loves me not.

By She Wants Revenge

Felt too much, did she feel a thing?
Long, dark hair, never saw her cry
In two halves I was torn
My maybe love who wouldn't even try

She loves me, she loves me not
She loves me, she loves me not

I saw you only yesterday
We shared a smile, then went our separate ways
Perhaps one day? never mind
All the nights we shared, were we just killing time?

She loves me, she loves me not
She loves me, she loves me not

For all the things I said to her and all the ways I tried
And all the things I did for her, they're lost with one goodbye

She loves me, she loves me not
She loves me, she loves me not

For all the things I said to her and all the ways I tried
And all the things I did for her were lost with one goodbye

She loves me, she loves me not
She loves me, she loves me not

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uhrLEFdDM1E

04.09.2010.

Pricaj s njom.

Ne mogu pricat s njom
i ne zelim pisat ovo ali
nisam dobro.

Ne mogu se ni vidjat s njom
i ne zelim pisat ovo
ali nisam dobro.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=stId6OmJk2o

03.09.2010.

Bedak.

Tony Cetinski 'umire sto puta dnevno', ali ja ne umirem sto puta. To je malo. Ja umrem hiljadu, milijun puta i ponovno ozivim na trenutak kad mi pruzi minimalno svoje paznje. Tuzno na sta covjek spadne. Tuzno kako ne moze nastaviti dalje. Tuzno mi sebe ovakvog gledati. Tuga.

02.09.2010.

Broken promises for broken hearts.

By 'She Wants Revenge'

Pay attention my love cause its over
At the tip of my tongue is the price you weren't willing to pay
Still this is something akin to a breakdown
And your impression of a woman supposed to be easy to see
That there'd be torn up photos and lonely nights
Cursing crying and drawn out fights
Make up sex and a brand new start
Broken promises for broken hearts

When you look back now was it special?
Or was it nothing but anecdote that you can tell now and then
I delude myself it was worth it
Even though from the beginning I could see exactly how it would end

That there'd be torn up photos and lonely nights
Cursing crying and drawn out fights
Make up sex and a brand new start
Broken promises for broken hearts
Torn up photos and lonely nights
Cursing crying and drawn out fights
Make up sex and a brand new start
Broken promises for broken hearts

I wanna wish you away, I wanna wish you away
I wanna wish you away, I wanna wish you away?
I wanna kiss you away

Torn up photos and lonely nights
Cursing crying and drawn out fights
Make up sex and a brand new start
Broken promises for broken hearts

02.09.2010.

Expectations.

Ocekivanja ce me ubiti. Jebes nadu, jebes planove kad nikad nista ne ispadne kako treba. -.-


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